Friday, 10 April 2015
Friday, 13 March 2015
Beberapa pekan lalu, saya mendapat kabar yang bikin shock. Salah seorang teman seangkatan saya di kampus, Hardiana, dipanggil Allah dalam usia yang masih muda. Seumuran saya. 27, atill young, no? Perantara ajalnya adalah sakit anemia aplastik dan maag kronis. Berita itu mengingatkan saya bahwa maut tak kenal usia. Kematian tak mensyaratkan kita harus tua dulu. Begitulah.
Hal pertama yang terlintas ketika mendengar kabar beliau telah tiada adalah senyum dan candanya yang khas. Meski kami teman sekelas semasa kuliah, tapi kami bukan teman akrab yang rutin berjumpa dalam kurun waktu tertentu. Tak juga rutin berkirim pesan lewat berbagai aplikasi messenger atau layanan sms. Apalagi berbagi kabar lewat panggilan telepon. Tak pernah. Namun ketika kami berjumpa di kampus, khususnya ketika tak ada lagi proses belajar mengajar rutin seperti di semester -semester awal perkuliahan, Hardiana selalu dengan hangat melontarkan canda dan berbagi tawa riangnya dengan saya. Tak akan pernah saya lupakan.
Maka ketika saya dan teman-teman mendapat kabar duka itu, saya merasa seperti kehilangan teman akrab. Sedih. Tak menyangka. Meski pastilah tak sesedih keluarga dan kawan-kawan akrabnya.
So that is how we remember her. Hardiana yang ceria. Hardiana yang sanggup membuat kami merasa seperti teman akrabnya. You will always be remembered, Hardiana :')
Kelak ketika kita tiada, seperti apakah kita akan diingat? Tak bisa dibuat-buat. Orang-orang akan mengingat kita apa adanya kita. Jadilah diri sendiri. Jadilah yang terbaik dari diri kita sendiri. Bukan semata untuk dikenang orang-orang. Tapi supaya di akhirat sana Allah berikan rahmatNya agar kita bisa berkumpul di syurga bersama mereka yang kita sayangi.
Friday, 20 February 2015
Wednesday, 18 February 2015
Self-enticement to delay, till the 17th day of this month which should have been Entry Seventeen of this project, is still the major factor of why ten days have been wasted for nothing. I really thank Allah that I have two great supervisors who never stop insisting me to finish this project. And now this sentence is starting to sound like 'Acknowledgement' section of a paper :lol:
Today, I pull myself to continue writing. So far I've written about 1,000 words of 13,374. I don't know whether or not this kinda project has minimum or maximum words, but I reckon what I am doing today hasn't my best yet. Then I took a break a while, checking my phones that remain silent *because I set them so*, and one SMS was unread in my primary number. I thought it must be from the cell-operator that frequently send messages to the customers. Surprisingly, it wasn't them. It was one of my supervisors, asking whether or not I have finished writing the thesis. It wasn't his first SMS asking the question. And I feel like a student who procrastinate the project for years for receiving that kinda question at that time :'( Feeling sooo guilty *again and again*
Today I really feel grateful to have the SMS. It opened my eyes and got me up, and made me aware that this vacation project denies all the delays. This project deserves to be paid myriad attention from me. I cannot have reason to keep the lazy bones growing in me. This project does have DEADLINE, and I have to make it on time!
I have 24 hours a day. And I think I am to make the half of it to accomplish the project. What about yours?
Thursday, 12 February 2015
Monday, 9 February 2015
Saturday, 7 February 2015
Thursday, 5 February 2015
Wednesday, 4 February 2015
It's such a big challenge to do this project at this very moment, with so many distractors *which mostly I created myself hiks hiks*. Anyway life must go on. Then I have to force myself to continue this project, and also post this entry two.
So far, I have done with the questionnaires and interview recordings. I have printed them out for the convenience of reading them through. I am now still in progress to divide the text into segments of information, and then collapse the code into themes. Thank God my experience using blog really helps me a lot to sort the things out.
Mostly, the data are in line with the theories I provide in Chapter 2. It should be that way, for sure. Anyway I still need to explore more from Online Observation to triangulate the data. I plan to do it tomorrow.
Okay then. I think I really have to fight myself from any laziness that might provoke me to procrastinate, for last nite I had a dream that one of my lecturer asked me how far I have been doing the project :'((((
So see you tomorrow with next entry.